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In the office behind me, an Associate Producer is on the phone:
He: Oh man, you're talking about a lot of people huh? We're totally going to have to invest in some hookers & livestock! Wow, Julie's coming?! I haven't seen her since our Chester the Molestor days. Sweet!
I have done it! I've finally gotten off my (very-sore-from-all-those-lunges) butt and created a separate Muay Thai blog.
Please join me over at Butterfly Fray for more kickboxing goodness!
How is it possible that an entire week has gone by since last I posted anything? Similarly, how is it possible that Thanksgiving is next week? Who put 2007 on fast forward all of a sudden?
I've been in a bit of a funk for the last week for a variety of reasons. We've been busy at work and my raise is still under negotiation, as it has been for the last 6 months. Money remains a constant source of stress, especially since my Treo committed ritual suicide during a meeting yesterday and I had to scramble to get a replacement. My knee is healing well, but I'm frustrated that I can't train as hard as I'd like to until I've built up more strength in my legs. The Fireman and I have been talking a lot lately, which is both wonderful and heartbreaking since it's very clear that we both want to be together but it's just not in the cards right now. Two of my friends are going through some icky health stuff and I'm worried about them. And, my friend James was killed on the 5 last week. Though we weren't terribly close, he was a shining spirit and the world is a bit darker for his loss.
Thanksgiving (my absolute favorite holiday) is only a week away and once again I find myself unable to treat a houseful of friends and family to food, drinks, and football. I love hosting Thanksgiving, but I haven't been able to do it for the past couple of years because of money & work issues. While I know that's not the end of the world, it still sucks and I'm bummed.
So, yeah. I've been a bit blue lately. There's a lot going on in my head and I've retreated while I struggle to sort through it all. There's a lot to sort.
I am so grateful that I found Muay Thai when I did - it allows me to shut off my brain for a couple of hours each night and that has been invaluable in keeping my sanity.
This evening, after getting our asses kicked by the Boxing instructor:
Me: I am going home to to take a shower, and go to bed.
She: I am going home to eat dinner; I'm SO hungry.
Me: Oh my god, last night I was starving after class but I had no food at home so I had to stop at Ralph's. I was wandering around the market in such a daze, I just wanted someone to hand me something so I could buy it and get home.
She: Oh yeah, I know those nights. Those are the nights when you don't even have the energy to microwave something - you just look at the label and think "I have to stir and recover? Now way, that's way too much work."
Words cannot describe how much I love this photo and its caption.
(Thanks, Jason!)
When I woke up this morning all was gray, shrouded and silent.
My little mountain is about 1300 feet above sea level, and the clouds are hovering around 700 feet today, so when I peered out the window I couldn't see more than 5 feet in any direction. It's a bit of a strange feeling, being unable to see anything but mist and shadow, and I drank my morning tea while watching the sun struggle, and fail, to break through the gloom.
Truth be told, the weather suited my mood perfectly. Though plenty of good things have been happening lately, this is still the dark part of the year when the cosmic focus is on death as a means of eventual rebirth. As I take stock of my life, marking the things that need to be released and those that need to be nurtured, I feel as though my path is shrouded from view. The future, once so clear and bright, glints weakly as though through a thick fog.
What to do? Which way to go? Is that gently moving shape a beckoning arm, or the edge of a nasty trap? Right now, I can't tell the difference. So I'm crawling along, hands held out in front of me, hoping that eventually I'll stumble into the light.
. . . I wish I could know if the directions that I take
And all the choices that I make won't end up all for nothing
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?. . .
Help me carry on
Assure me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes
To navigate the darkness-"Crawling in the Dark," Hoobastank
I completed my first 101 in 1001 in August and I liked it so much, I'm doing it again!
The Mission: Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.
The Criteria: Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).
Inspiration: The 101/1001 challenge was created by triplux and I found it via Jason.
Timeline: November 1, 2007 through July 29, 2010 (This nifty date calculator helped me figure it out)
And now, on to the tasks. I've carried over a few from the last list, but most are brand new:
