Blue

How is it possible that an entire week has gone by since last I posted anything? Similarly, how is it possible that Thanksgiving is next week? Who put 2007 on fast forward all of a sudden?

I've been in a bit of a funk for the last week for a variety of reasons. We've been busy at work and my raise is still under negotiation, as it has been for the last 6 months. Money remains a constant source of stress, especially since my Treo committed ritual suicide during a meeting yesterday and I had to scramble to get a replacement. My knee is healing well, but I'm frustrated that I can't train as hard as I'd like to until I've built up more strength in my legs. The Fireman and I have been talking a lot lately, which is both wonderful and heartbreaking since it's very clear that we both want to be together but it's just not in the cards right now. Two of my friends are going through some icky health stuff and I'm worried about them. And, my friend James was killed on the 5 last week. Though we weren't terribly close, he was a shining spirit and the world is a bit darker for his loss.

Thanksgiving (my absolute favorite holiday) is only a week away and once again I find myself unable to treat a houseful of friends and family to food, drinks, and football. I love hosting Thanksgiving, but I haven't been able to do it for the past couple of years because of money & work issues. While I know that's not the end of the world, it still sucks and I'm bummed.

So, yeah. I've been a bit blue lately. There's a lot going on in my head and I've retreated while I struggle to sort through it all. There's a lot to sort.

I am so grateful that I found Muay Thai when I did - it allows me to shut off my brain for a couple of hours each night and that has been invaluable in keeping my sanity.

Comments

[smartlikeatruck]

Perhaps you might consider hosting a leftovers potluck over the weekend? Encourage your friends to come over with their random leftovers.
It would clear out their kitchens, and give you the holiday kinship you're craving, without a big spend-all.
You could provide the beer and wine. I don't know about the football, though. I'm afraid I prefer the Great American Pastime.

[Tag]

*hugs*

Just don't step on my Blue Suede shoes darlin'... ;-)

I will send positive energy your way in hopes things come around soon. My traditional winter blues lasted a mere week this year, I hope the same for you!

:-)

[Keith]

Well, for what it's worth, my world is a little brighter with you in it.

[Adri]

I promise not to drop your new Blackberry... sorry about your friend as well. Hang in there, I know how you feel.