« April 2006 | Main | June 2006 »

May 2006

May 31, 2006

Heroes

 
When a man becomes a fireman his greatest act of bravery has been accomplished. What he does after that is all in the line of work. . . Firefighters do not regard themselves as heroes because they do what the business requires. 
-Chief Edward F. Croker, NYFD 1899-1911

Substitute the title "paramedic," or "police officer" in the above and the words are just as true.

As the daugher of a paramedic, I grew up around the unsung heroes of our society - emergency personnel. Their peculiar lifestyle is woven into the fabric of my childhood.

Firemansam_1

Late night radio calls. Endless shifts. Medical Jargon. Balloon animals made out of tourniquets - they're all a part of my memories. Even on the holidays, our door was always open to those who were working (regardless of whether or not my mother was). We have countless photos of uniformed medics and police officers sitting around our table, radios set next to their salad plates, ears listening for the next call. 

It wasn't unusual for me to come home from school to find a police car or a paramedic truck parked in the driveway, or to hear the single whoop of a siren in the night as my mother's friends drove past our house. There was almost always someone in uniform standing in the kitchen, drinking coffee and talking to one or both of my parents. They were like family in every sense of the word.

And yet, for all that familiarity, I never forgot that those people, my mother and our family friends, were risking their lives for us every single day. I never forgot that the next time the phone rang, it could be news of a police officer who'd been shot in the line of duty or a paramedic who'd been hit by a car while working at an accident scene. (Yes, my family got both of those calls though mercifully neither were my mother)

The sound of sirens always makes me pause to think about not only the victims who warranted the sirens, but also the people who are racing beneath them.

It's not something you dwell on, but nobody wants to get that phone call.

The Fireman (pictured above) called me early this morning, as I was on my way to work.

Me: Where have you been? I worry when you disappear for more than a few days.
He: Oh, I'm ok. Now.
Me: Now?
He: I was at the hospital
Me: Do you mean that you were working extra shifts? Or that you were a patient?
He: Well we were fighting this car fire...
Me: Patient, then.
He: I was standing in the wrong position when the bumper exploded off the car; it hit me full force.
Me: What's the damage?
He: Six broken ribs and a collapsed lung.
Me: Well, that could have been much worse.
He: Whatever, I'm fine. When I pulled on my buddy's leg and he saw me gasping on the ground, he put a mayday on the radio: firefighter down. I felt like such a jackass. I mean, he didn't really need to do all that.
Me: Yes he did. You'd have done the same for him.

Though my heart lurched in my chest at the thought of him laying on an intersate gasping for air, for him this was all in a day's work. The only thing he's upset about is the fact that he was forced to take a few weeks of medical leave.

That's why emergency professionals are heroes - because it is not in their nature to be heroic.

Yes, there are a few bad apples here and there, but overall? These people aren't in it for the glory, they're in it because they can't imagine doing anything else. Because they are courageous enough to deal with gruesome sights from which we turn away. Because they are brave enough to run towards a fire while the rest of us run away. Because they are undaunted by those who consider themselves beyond the law.

Think about that next time you see a fire truck zoom past in traffic (and for heaven's sake, pull to the right), or the next time you hear an ambulance wailing in the night.

And maybe next time you come across a paramedic, or a fire fighter, or a police officer?

Say thank you.

May 30, 2006

Ready or Not

When there are two things on the table, it's easy to make a choice. When there are thirty? The whole decision becomes much more complicated.

So said my neighbor, F, on Sunday as we were standing outside chatting.

F & his finacee are expecting another child. After he shared this news with me and I'd offered my best wishes, we got to talking about why people our age (25-35, for the purposes of this exercise) are so consumed with the idea of being ready for everything.

We spend our college years trying to get ready for the outside world and our careers trying to be ready for advancement. We won't enter relationships unless we're ready, or contemplate getting married, buying a house, or starting a family unless both people feel ready for the challenge. Most days we won't even leave the house or return a phone call until we feel ready to do so.

While I certainly advocate being prepared for things (or at least aware of what you're getting into), we as a generation seem to be wasting years of our life pursuing this false sense of foundation... missing opportunities that don't wait for us to feel ready to take them.

Are we ever really ready? And what happens if we're not? Time doesn't stop and wait for us to catch up; the world, as we well know, moves heedlessly on. Why do we cling so desperately to this all-consuming need for preparedness?

F's first child was a surprise to say the least; he and G were only 23 and had barely admitted to being ready for a relationship - parenthood was at the end of several as-yet uncompleted checklists. But there it was, staring them in the face, whether they were ready or not.

Five years later the two of them are still happy together and they are raising a bright, happy, well-adjusted daughter whose laugh carries for a block and whose smile should probably be classified as a deadly weapon. F assures me that, though the experience has not always been easy, it has been rewarding and it's given him a unique perspective on the nature of self-imposed timelines and the need for readiness:

You can't think in timelines when it comes to relationships, just throw them out completely. She and I would never have met had we not both happened to be in the same place at the same time and we definitely wouldn't have had our daughter when we did if we'd waited until we were "ready." You can't plan that stuff and you can't ever be ready for it. All you can do is pay attention and hope that you can see, and rise to, the opportunities when they present themselves.

I think that's true of all areas of our life, not just relationships. We are blessed in that we have so many more choices available to us than previous generations did, but we are also crippled by the overwhelming number of those choices. Somewhere along with the limitless possibilities and big dreams, we also picked up this paralyzing fear of making the wrong choice - that one false move could somehow doom the rest of our lives.

And so, we plan. Endlessly. In fact we are so mired in planning, and timelines, and in the need to "sort ourselves out" that our lives are flying right past us and we are missing them.

Life is what happens while you're busy making other plans.
-John Lennon

Life is capricious, and savage, and serendipitous. You meet people with whom a relationship seems both impossible and inevitable. You stumble across a job that makes your heart sing, even though you have no formal training for it. A tragedy changes your life in just a few seconds. Things happen every day, regardless of whether or not you're ready for them.

And you know what? We will never be ready for those things. Ever. But isn't that the feral beauty of Life? That even if something seems ill-advised, or poorly timed, or not at all what you were expecting, you've no choice but to buck everything, cross your fingers, and dive right in?

Instead we hang back, preparing endlessly, and those opportunities pass us by.

What are we waiting for?

Ready or not, here I come.

May 29, 2006

Memorial Day

Soldier, rest! thy warfare o'er,
Sleep the sleep that knows not breaking:
Dream of battled fields no more,
Days of danger, nights of waking.
In our isle's enchanted hall,
Hands unseen thy couch are strewing,
Fairy strains of music fall,
Every sense in slumber dewing.
Soldier, rest! thy warfare o'er,
Dream of fighting fields no more:
Sleep the sleep that knows not breaking,
Morn of toil, nor night of waking.

No rude sound shall reach thine ear,
Armour's clang, or war-steed champing,
Trump nor pibroch summon here
Mustering clan, or squadron tramping,
Yet the lark's shrill fife may come
At the day-break from the fallow,
And the bittern sound his drum,
Booming from the sedgy shallow.
Ruder sounds shall none be near,
Guards nor warders challenge here,
Here's no war-steed's neigh and champing,
Shouting clans or squadrons stamping.

-Excerpt from Sir Walter Scott's The Lady of the Lake: Canto 1 in recognition of Memorial Day.

At 3pm today, take a moment out of that barbeque or beach trip to participate in the National Moment of Remembrance and honor all those who have fallen.

May 28, 2006

Good Plan

Saturday night at the Arclight.

21+ screening of Over the Hedge.

Best date plan ever.

May 26, 2006

Geek0210

I can't decide if last night was a terribly geeky night for me, or a terribly L.A. one...

  • Saw the midnight show of X-Men 3: The Last Stand. +5 Geek
  • Saw it at the Mann Chinese Theater in Hollywood. +5 L.A.
  • Took someone who had never been to the Mann Chinese, in spite of living in Los Angeles for 7 years. +3 L.A.
  • Arrived 90 minutes before the film started. +3 Geek
  • Blamed early arrival on wanting to allow time for "traffic" and "parking." +2 L.A.
  • Did not go in costume. -1 Geek
  • Could identify (by both real name and mutant nickname) 95% of the people who did arrive in costume +7 Geek
  • Poked myself in the eye with my straw while attempting to take a sip of Diet Coke. Dork Penalty. Lose 2 Geek points and 5 LA points
  • Sat behind Courtney Love* and her entourage +10 L.A.
  • Swapped stories with Noise Boy about various entertainment projects we've worked on: +7 L.A.
  • Was almost as excited to see the Superman & Pirates previews as I was to see the movie. +3 Geek
  • Successfully played "name that mutant cameo" during the movie. +10 Geek
  • Stayed until the end of the credits and cheered appropriately. +2 Geek
  • Spent a few minutes wandering around after the movie, showing Noise Boy some of the best handprints & footprints. +5 L.A.

Final tally: Equal parts Geek (27) and Los Angeles (27).

That sounds about right.

____
*And overheard her say things like ... whatever, I just don't want to get arrested again, ok?

May 25, 2006

I'm Spending a Year Dead For Tax Reasons

There is a theory which states that if ever anyone discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable.There is another theory which states that this has already happened. -Douglas Adams

Towelday

If human beings don't keep exercising their lips, he thought, their mouths probably seize up. After a few months' consideration and observation he abandonded this theory in favor of a new one. If they don't keep on exercising their lips, he thought, their brains start working. - Douglas Adams

Happy Towel Day Everyone!

May 22, 2006

Mental Note: Buy Tweezers

Is it inevitable that the one time you forget to put down the toilet lid your fingers will slip while grabbing your tweezers from the shelf above the toilet, and that the resulting gravity test will send your tweezers swishing down to the great beyond?

Only if you're me, my friends. Only if you're me.

May 21, 2006

Soundtrack of my Life

I found this over at Chronic Listaholic:

If your life was a movie, what would the soundtrack include?

The opening title: Ac-cent-tchu-ate the Positive, Johnny Mercer
The waking-up scene: Wake Up Boo, The Boo Radleys
The average day/menial tasks montage: 1985, Bowling For Soup
The secret crush: Complicated, Carolyn Dawn Johnson
The first date/blind date: Breathless, The Coors
The party: Fight For Your Right, Beastie Boys
The dance sequence: Move Ya Body, Nina Sky
The falling in love/"spark" scene: Someone Like You, Dina Carrol
The lovemaking scene: Love Song, P!nk
The fight scene: Running Away, Hoobastank
The break-up: I'll Be OK, Amanda Marshall
Long night alone: I Need Some Sleep, eels
The reconciliation: Painted On My Heart, The Cult
The mental breakdown: Superman, Five For Fighting
The stalking: Walking After You, Foo Fighters
The explosion/shoot-out: Out Comes the Evil, Lords of Acid
The get-away/driving scene: Stop the Rock, Apollo 440
The learning-a-lesson montage: Learn to Fly (Acoustic), Foo Fighters
Deep thoughts: Unwell, Matchbox Twenty
The flashback: Bittersweet Symphony, The Verve
Regrets: All These Things That I've Done, The Killers
The death scene: Angel, Sarah McLachlan
As the closing credits roll: Brown Eyed Girl, Everclear

May 19, 2006

Calling all (Star Trek) Geeks

Where No Auction Has Gone Before

A massive auction of Star Trek props, costumes, models and Vulcan tapestry culled direct from Paramount's studio vaults was announced Thursday by Christie's in New York. Though billed as a 40th anniversary event, the sale, to be held Oct. 5-7, will feature less of the 40-year-old variety Starfleet stuff, and more of the Next Generation and beyond variety brands.

I so need a Vulcan Tapestry for my living room. I mean, doesn't everyone?

Not that we'll have the chance to get them... I'm sure Tony Alleyne will beat us to all the good stuff.

TGIF

Does anyone else feel like this has been the longest week EVER? Damn. It should be Friday three or four times over by now.

Poor Irishman... no doubt I'll be a complete zombie by the time I see him tonight.