Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday - a day devoted entirely to being with people you care about and to being thankful for what you have without religious or heavily commercial overtones. Crisp weather, bountiful and delicious food, friends, family and football... Thanksgiving encompasses almost all of my very favorite things. Every year I look forward to it as the joyful kickoff of the Holiday season.
This year... well... this year hasn't worked out exactly as I'd hoped. Having turned down generous offers from friends in favor of another plan, I find myself with the fixings for a modest turkey dinner and no one else with whom to cook it.*
Life, it seems, doesn't stop for holidays.
It would be easy to lapse into self-pity, to waste the day in tears and amorphous anger. It would be easy to mistake this as something that happened to me, rather than something that just happened.
But, why?
This Thanksgiving may not be unfolding exactly the way I'd imagined, but I still have so much for which to be thankful:
I am thankful for my beautiful new home in a lovely green place where I feel both safe and settled.
I am thankful for the cats, who are a combined 30 pounds of comfort and comedy every day.
I am thankful for my job that, for all its frustrations, is now challenging me to learn new things.
I am thankful for my health, for a body strong enough to build, to dance, to climb.
I am thankful for my chosen family of beautiful, crazy, awe-inspring friends whom I adore.
I am thankful for my my parents, and for C&J, who love me unconditionally and who never stop believing that I am capable of anything... of everything.
And I am thankful for Apollo, whose love I know to be both profound and steadfast. I am a better person for loving him, and for being loved by him.
There will be other Thanksgivings that will live up to my best-laid plans, so this year I'll spend the day quietly... cooking up my turkey and being thankful for all the gifts of my life.
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*Ed Note: No, I am not utterly alone. I could call any one of those friends and say "I'm stranded" and they would happily squeeze an extra place setting on to their table, but I've decided to take the cue from the Universe and spend a peaceful day at home instead.